talldarkloathsome:
The words of the song become less coherent–more musical noises in the vague shape of words, half-remembered and slipping into a vague murmur that is soon swallowed whole by the lapping of the waves below.
She’s sorry, she says. She wants to help.
He laughs. Not a lot, and not angrily, per say; it’s a single noise, and it lacks bite, but it is what it is regardless. Slowly, Droog pushes himself up, first onto his elbows, and then he’s upright entirely, taking a moment to compose himself as the blood in his head settles and the dizziness fades.
“Handmaid,” he says, voice a low slur just barely audible above the waves, “the only thing you could do to help me in this moment is help me burn your family down into cinders, and I’m afraid you won’t find that to be…very agreeable.”
Needless to say, she stiffens once he moves, but settles a bit when he simply sits up- letting out a shaky sigh as her nerves settled back into place.
“That’s not true,” she admits with a purse of her lips. Taking her eyes off him to stare up at the sky, and what little of the stars she could see so close to the city. “There’s some people I wouldn’t mind watching you set ablaze. Like my father, or Trace. He really deserves it about right now,” Her gaze drops, lazily considering out loud. “-Lord English. Now that’s one I’d absolutely help you with. Without a doubt, I’d give you my everything and my all.”
The Handmaid remains standing, partly out of worry that it wouldn’t be acceptable to sit down next to him. Not right now. And also partly because staring at the dark, ever-moving waters made handy feel sick- swallowing hard and averting her gaze quiet often. Why did he have to be on dock of all things.
“There’s other things I can do,” she offers. And, immediately winces, hearing the desperation in her tone. “I can see her, hear her. I even almost got her to lift a teacup earlier.” She clears her throat instead of kicking herself. “And… I have my majyyks. I’m learning new things about them every day, in the little ways I stretch them and test the waters. I’m sure I can do something.”
She scrunches up, a scowl on her face as she considers her words. Considers what they’ll entail and what they’ll mean in the long-run, after her superiors find out. “I’d do anything to bring your daughter back, Diamonds Droog. Even if it were to permanently do me in, I’d give my life. Over and over if I had to.” Her voice quiets, almost a mumble. “That’s the very least a big sister could do, I’d think.”
(Source: menacingmaid)